Today My Life Begins

                I know all of you already had an idea what my life is. Dramatic. Yes, my life is dramatic and full of tear-flooded events. I'm such a cry baby. I can't with my two feet supporting me. I can't walk straightly for I always lost my balance. My friends are getting annoyed to me for being so dramatic. I kept on apologizing to the because I can't even change the way I face life. I got to solve problems but then another problem appears. The struggles won't just leave me alone. 

                  I once decided to talk to myself. Face to face with a mirror. We had a deep conversation with each other. At the end. We agreed at one thing. CHANGE. I pitied myself. Why be alone when I myself could change. One of the challenges I faced was my social life. I'm a weak person when it comes to friendships. But change did a lot of things to me, I decided to be strong. Be strong but not hard-hearted. I diagnosed all of my problems, I made different kinds of solutions, and test them one by one, disregarding the fact that sometimes the solutions don't work, because I know that every error adds up to my bowl of knowledge.

                    Have you noticed the first song in my playlist? Yes, Today My Life Begins is the songs' title. I chose that song. Actually, that song sums up my life. I'm tied to the ground by the chains of problems, and challenges. But I chose to continue and live with my life. I am becoming aware of the changes in my surroundings. I know I can't keep people from changing but still I need to adapt and continue. I may be brought down by these challenges but I use the chains that bindi me to the ground to be my guide and to launch me high to reach my goals and learn more. I kept a promise to myself that I should never give up.

Oh just like all the seasons never stay the same

All around me I can feel a change (oh)

I will break these chains that bind me happiness will find me

Leave that past behind me today my life begins

A whole new world is waiting its mine for the taking

I know I can make it today my life begins

Steps to adapt with the challenges:

1. Diagnose the Challenges

  Know the challenge first. Know all the details about the challenge.

2. Formulate solutions

  Possible solutions. What I mean is think of all the possible solutions.

3. Trial and Error

  Test the solutions slowly. Don't get depress everytime you face an error because it will surely lead you to your goal.

My Legacy

         Honestly, I’m so desperate in making others remember me. I’ll do everything just to make him/her remember me. But it seems like every time I try to do remarkable things, I always end up screwing it or failing it. I don’t really know if failure and I are linked somehow because we are a tandem, we are always together. I don’t know if it’s just me or am I really changing?

        Legacy. A prestigious, luxurious, and classy word for me. It's like big mark that you will leave and a big mark left in hearts of people that’s carved by you, yourself. Actually, I really don’t know what legacy I would leave behind if I ever get erased or obliterated in this damn world. I’m not good at anything, I dance but not too great like Mark, I sing but not too amazing like ate Denize, I can act but not as serious as Diana, I’m also not good in academics. I’m just a person with a normal life as the others, waiting for hope that someday, they can shine and be in the spotlight.

  Since I am not capable of doing extraordinary things, all I can do is to be there for somebody, be there for everybody. That’s the legacy that I think is suitable for me and is what I am capable of doing. I’m pained, I’m useless, I’m weak, but I can stand up and be there for anybody. I can fill the empty spaces in your life. I can be your ideal friend, we can go in the canteen together, eat together. We can even go everywhere together. I can be a friend of anybody. A universal friend you can say.

       Being a friend is not the only mark I can carve in the souls of everybody. My freshmen years gave way to a new talent for me. Photography. I really don’t know why I’m so attached to the camera. Maybe because I like people to smile for me and create a great photo. I’ve witnessed a lot of happy and sad things as I enhance this new discovered talent of mine. The batch knew me as a photographer and I will live the life being a photographer.

      I don’t know if the things I mentioned were legit legacies, but those things are what I want people to remember from me. I want them to live with the legacy I contributed to the community. A friend who’s always there for you and a capturer who keeps and treasures precious memories. I like to be remembered that way. God has plans for me. I might be bruised and scarred but that won’t stop me from having leaving these remarkable things

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
-Jeremiah 29:11