Still A Catastrophic Me

Right before I hit the break and let everything sink in me,
I knew I entered a new life full of cries and laughter.

It was the exciting Grade 9 school year, were I get to meet new people,
learning how to adjust with them one by one.

Right from the start, I knew I was at a disadvantage, Why?

Because these people spent their 2 years together, building
strong bonds and unbreakable friendships. They already know
each other, and then I'm here, trying to fit in.

It was hard, as hard as accepting the fact that the boy I met
and became friends with left me in thin air. Yeah, sounds dramatic and gay

for a man like me to say things like this, It's just I don't
like the fact that, we became close and poof! Like a bubble disappearing

into nothing. And just like that, It put my social life to reset. Back to zero I guess

Fitting in was a challenge, together with the subject lectures
I was living in a poisonous killing sea of magma, trying

to devour my confidence, and enclosing me in my comfort zone again.

It was a living hell for my new class was full of random people. Sometimes, they

talk to me but that's just temporary. Nobody can't seem to accept me, not even a single one.

Festivals, School events, and many jolly and fun activities passed by,
I had fun times but life really is a game and I'm one of the players,
but the thing is, I always lose. Confident enough to stand again,
I continued.

As part of my hobby, I got a model and participated in the ICT Club's
Digital Photography Contest. I tried my might getting the best shots, I 

even borrowed a high-end camera just to

come up with the best ones, And guess what, we won First place!

There's this pageant I once joined, it's already my second

time joining one but still, my heart was a firetruck, pumping hardly 

on water to kill the pressure inside me. I'm not that attractive, but
I was shocked by the fact that I was chosen as Mr. Popularity.

Kamfilan Festival, it was fun. Our school level joined the ethic dance contest.
We practiced with all our might. At the end, our hardwork, and

days of cram is over as we received the first place award.

The fun doesn't end the, for Ma'am Maye told me that she welcomes me as a 

member of the SALIW dance troupe. (mixed emotions)

Halloween is one of my favorite events in October, besides my

birthday, I don't even wanna remember what happened on my birthday,
It just messed up my mind. So ya Halloween fair started, I took pictures
and it was very fun seeing the reactions of students in costumes
entering the horror house.

Let me quicken things a little bit, it was the start of a 

new year and we get to practice social dances for 

our junior senior promenade. My partner was a wild friend of mine

Diana Serra :D

The day the prom was executed, my heart was 

pounding the whole time, I just can't understand

why I can't join on a group's table of a squad and

talk to them normally. I was just quiet and things stirred up my mind.

School year was ending, and I knew I didn't improve. It's the same childish,

dramatic and playful me going on with life. But I met this person and he/she

help me get through my everyday struggle. I'm not saying were on the same boat but

he/she understands me clearly. I'm just scared. frightened that my greed could go take over anytime.

Back then, English was one of my least favorite subjects.

All those grammar and stuff, it's just make my mind

go boom. Not until my teacher, Ma'am Mildred C. Atendido,

introduced a new kind of English to me.

Every lessons reflects the problems I encounter with life.

Ma'am Maye helped me, not directly, but in a way

that her teachings about life hacks and quotation of important values

helped me.

Ma'am Maye was one of the teachers who inspired me. And believe me 

or not, this is the first time a teacher believed in my talent and

let me join a club called SALIW. That's why words can't express

how thankful I am that she believed in me.

Ma'am Maye is also a strong and active teacher. Not only interms

of academic related things but also things

that bring joy and good memories to people. As for now, she manages the 

SALIW and GSP clubs. Both are active and really helps other students to know

and expand their talents.

Ma'am Maye, even though I'm not one as close to you as Mark,

I am still thankful. Thank you Ma'am, for believing, for teaching, and for

showing me ways on how to live on and love myself together with my talents

and skills. Thanks you for every lesson you thought me, whether it's academically or personally. You have a strong personality Ma'am and that's why people and students respect you. Thank you Ma'am, for this wonderful year of teaching me new things in English class. Thank you for understanding and taking care of my old classmates, even though sometimes they humiliate you :D Thank you for everything Ma'am :D Take Care po :)

Rocky Roads To Sweet-Vanilla Endings

                We started as young beginners longing for knowledge about this world. We are novice juice makers ready to extract the juice out of this giant fruit. To succeed in this world is a combination of blood and sweat. Blood for the everyday sacrifices we make and sweat for the days and weeks of hardworks we do to attain our goals. For me, success is the fruit of all your sacrifices and hardworks. in order to attain success, we must possess some life traits that could help us be more successful.

                First of all, we need to establish a good and strong relationship with God. As the quote says "Everything is possible with God". God can help you do everything. His words can teach you life-worthy learnings and can really help you attain great levels of success. Go to church worship daily and keep a journal or bible verses and reflections to help you assess yourself every day and night. We also need to establish good relationship with other people, as to they will be the one who will help us in the long run as we enter the steps of succession of life. Overcoming mind battles is one of the key to succession. Mind battles happen just everyday. After waking up, starting work or even going to school. Mind battles is what we call those decision making. Decisions are the ones that'll predict our future and what faith awaits us as we go on in the long run. Being positive is another way of being successful. "You can't do this" "You're a drag in this community" "You don't possess every trait" "You can't be successful". Don't be brought down by this negative thoughts thrown by every person who wants you to be unsuccessful in life. Those so considered rivals of you who disrupts your progress in being a successful man. You are your story's main character, don't let secondary characters bring you down.
                                 

               Being successful in life requires you of different traits mentioned in the previous paragraph. Those may be one of your key to succession but to be sure, you have to possess all those traits. If ever you became a very successful man, don't ever forget where you came from and who are those people who helped you to reached that certain level. Don't be an airhead who boasts all his riches and things. Keep you humbleness and together with the good composure and positive look in life, you'll continue being successful.