He saw this boy in
school that he really want to
Make friends with,
but the fear he had inside, he knew
He was afraid,
that the boy might judge him, might
Not want to be
friends with, might leave him
A new milestone
sprouted, a new milestone of loneliness
A new milestone
full of depression, a new
World was
introduce to him, where everything was impossible,
Where everyone was
hard to approach, where everyone leaves
It was hard for
him, to socialize, to analyze everyone,
The past is going
to repeat itself again he thought
The past was everyone
was his friend, until everyone started to judge him,
Then everyone started to go, leaving him to an
endless pit of depression
But he was wrong,
everybody became his friends
Nobody judged him
nor leave him, they became good friends
To him, sharing
fun times, going to the canteen together, everything
Was near
perfection
Then he remembered
that boy he wants to make friends with
He scanned the
room in search of this boy, there in
The corner he saw
the boy, as he approaches him, he
Felt a tingling
feeling in his gut, knowing that he can’t do it
Day, weeks, months
passed, he learns to appreciate
The happiness of
the world, he’s starting to regain self confidence
He’s learning how
to socialize, even though he’s still afraid
Of being judged,
he still enjoys meeting new ones
The boy he wants
to be friends with, started
To approach him,
he became
Friends with the
boy, he was happy, consumed by
His happiness, he
now treats the boy as his bestfriend
All in his life he
wanted a bestfriend, he wanted
Not only a
companion but a true friend. Then he feared,
That what if the
past repeats itself again, that what if everyone leaves
Him again, what if
his bestfriend leaves him
Second year was
yet to come, He was glad that he was with
His friends again.
Young, wild and free, he was as
Happy as a chick
ready to burst its shell
And see the
brightness of the world
Bond was getting
stronger between him and his classmates
The type of bond
sisters and brothers have, the type of bond only
True friends can
have, the type of bond that can last forever
As he approaches
maturity, he knew he loved his classmates, he began to learn new
Things, he began
to meet new people, he began to
Know his self more,
and with this revelations, he realized that,
He was still fragile,
and still weak as a puppy that cannot dwell with the world itself
He’s still going
on with his life, he had complications, he became
Hospitalized and
lost hope but he still continued, his family supported him,
His friends
assisted him, he became happy again, he and his
Friends had so
much fun
But as the others
say, nothing lasts forever
Every bit of his
happiness was sucked in vacuum of regrets of Loneliness.
Regrets. Why? Because
he didn’t did well on his studies.
Loneliness. Why? Because
everybody was having fun and he should be there but he couldn't be
Counting the days
of being a junior student, he was depressed,
He wore a masked,
hiding the depression he had with a
Fake smile that
tricks everyone. He wasn't happy, his jolly attitude was gone,
He knew he misses them, he knew that he misses the memories he made with them
The day of
becoming a junior was hard for him, seeing his former classmates
Happy without him makes
him depress and not worthy of any joy
He was starting to
avoid them, making them not part of his life
Because thinking
about them makes his heart drop and stop
He browse through
social networks and saw photos of them,
Having fun, eating
together, and sharing fun times together
But where is he? He
was trapped in a void of depression
And only a mask of
happiness can hide all of those
But then an event
came, he was shocked
He found himself
having fun with the guys he used to forget
He had the time to
capture moments
He had another
time to replenish the sadness he felt
Up until now he
was happy, but still moving on from his past life
His best friend? Well,
his best friend was still happy,
He and his best friend still
talks every day in chat but rarely in personal
He avoids the
thought that he’s being replaced but it can’t be helped
His life doesn’t
end here, challenges may come but he may handle it
Base on the
difficulty. Dealing with the new people he is with now
Is a challenge. He
pursues his goal of smiling every day.
He's happy. He hopes he is happy.
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